I really thought I was going to cry this week. In fact, I told my male mentor teacher. I am sure that was awkward for him. But it is true. My whole world has become special education. I go to my placement and then come home and have to do prep work for the next day.
I miss having a life. And now when I get around people the only thing I know to talk about is special education. I feel so out of touch with the rest of the world. And I am pretty sure I am picking up some autistic tendencies. Great.....
I had been having a hard time finding my place in the classroom. I felt more like an educational assistant than anything else. Next week I am "officially" taking over. But even that looks like a glorified E.A. position. I know I can't have the whole class since I am only a student teacher. I guess the only other thing I would do as a real teacher is all the IEP paperwork.
I forced myself to hang out with friends on Thursday night. I am scared that I will get burned out before I even get a real job. I am just trying to find more balance in my life. My priority next week is to get more time for myself in my schedule. We will see how that goes...
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